A Tale of Names

Throughout my life I have had several shifts in identity, many of which precipitated or otherwise accompanied a new name. Here I'm going to go through the most significant ones, by way of introducing myself to all of you.

Douglas Jerry Halter

This is my birth name, and was the name I grew up thinking would be my only name ever. I never really had a problem with it, but my personal growth path has had me leaving it behind.

Julia

When I was in elementary school, I had two distinct experiences with the name "Julia".

First, was this time where I was out playing with someone, I don't even remember who, and we were talking about how we might be psychic, and how would we know if we were. Then a girl I didn't know was walking by on the other side of the street, and my friend asked me, "What do you think her name is?" I answered with the first thing that popped into my head: "Julia". My friend got real quiet and surprised at this, but I'm vague on what they said. The implication was that I was right, though. Now, it's entirely possible that they were making the whole thing up, but the event and the name have stuck with me all this time.

The second time was a few years later, I might have been in junior high by then, I'm not completely sure. I was dreaming, laying on my back floating on a cloud. Then a being, a girl, slowly appeared above me, and I was filled with a sense of peace and understanding. I knew, as if I had always known, that the girl's name was Julia, and that there was an eternal connection between us. My understanding of this event has shifted over time, from thinking that Julia was someone I would fall in love with to my current view of her as an aspect of my identity.

Douglas Jerry Moon

Right around when I was eighteen, this would be around 1994-1995, several things happened at about the same time, overlapping within a year or two. The first one I'm going to describe is my first marriage. Her last name was Moon, and we decided that, since I thought that was a really cool name, that I would be taking on her last name rather than the other way around. When we separated and eventually divorced I had by then become so used to being called a Moon that I kept it and have stayed that way ever since.

Darcy Julia Moon

The second was the result up to that point of my exploration of my gender identity, a journey that continues even now. At the time, that meant that I strongly considered myself to be partially female in addition to the male identity of my birth. This aspect of my identity needed a name, and I chose Darcy Julia Moon. I wanted to keep my initials, and I had the strong connection to Julia from my childhood, so that is what I used.

Conclusion

This post has been a long time coming, and I think I've covered the events enough to explain at least briefly what was going on. I'll likely go into more detail on some of this history in the future on this site. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope you come back to my site to read more!